Day 13 — I once got so drunk and lost control and this is what I was told I did and have no reason to doubt it…
Embarrassing confession time. This has never happened. I guess it's not so embarrassing now, but it didn't exactly make me popular in high school or college.
I will say, though, that I find myself looking down on adults who drink like teenagers. I don't need alcohol to have a good time, why do you? I enjoy a nice glass of wine or a cold, delicious beer - but one drink's almost always my limit.
I suppose being tipsy is fun, but it's never worth how I feel the next day - and not just the hangover - but the shame of losing control of myself, even for an evening. I'm a little ashamed of how judgmental I am on this whole thing, but there it is.
From one person who has dealt with chronic depression to another - I am judging you for not seeking solace in the bottom of a bottle. How fucking dare you deal in sobriety!
ReplyDeleteI kid, I kid. It's okay to feel the way you feel, Caroline. Let go of judging yourself for that. In your judgment of other you still acknowledge your *insignificance* as it relates to their choices which are not your choices. I think that's okay. A very wise friend of mine was just telling me last night that I don't have to justify my feelings. You should talk to her. She says good stuff.
Ha, I should meet this chick for sure.
DeleteI'm actually glad that not a lot of people have anything to report for this question.
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