Day 07 — I went to see a psychic, and was given the opportunity to ask three questions – I would ask……
1) Does my baby grow up to be happy? Really, that's sort of all I care about these days. I'm so afraid that decisions I make now will make him miserable later on. And, to be sure, they will - but I hope it's the "I'm miserable because you posted too many pictures of yourself smooching my smoochable cheeks on facebook" stuff, and not the "I'm miserable because I'm ever so emotionally damaged thanks to your atrocious parenting" stuff.
2) Is buying this house going to financially ruin us? We think we can afford it. We're pretty sure we can afford it. But I can't help but feel like the other shoe will drop at some point. Home ownership has always felt so unattainable that it feels like we're doing something wrong by embarking on this journey.
3) Will I ever be happy again? Life isn't very happy right now. I hope this is more of a bump in the road than the new normal. I adore my husband and son, but life in general is crushing the air out of my lungs every day.